Separation

Lately,lots n lots of performances has just been piling up as usual. Have never felt easy or relax since..i don't know when. Can't even keep track. I just need a break,but just when i have one i'll be thinking n have to plan for something else in my mind. Physically i do get rest n enjoy but not mentally. Oh well,a dancer will always be a dancer isn't it? Christmas is just around the corner,and soon after that it's a new year ahead of all of us. Everyone's getting another year older aren't we? Anyway,i've got lots to plan ahead. There's a possibility that i'll be away for good from next year onwards. Well for study purposes of course. Currently doin all the plannings and getting to know the details now for preparation. And we'll see how things goes.

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I'm pretty sad rite now,my dad has gone to work in the middle east and i know he wont be able to come back anytime soon. I cant imagine myself waking up every morning and not seeing my dad around me...it's just very hard for me as my dad has never been away for a long period of time. The most is about 3 days to a week and it's always in Malaysia. But now he's like gonna be halfway across the world from me and i know he's gonna be there for a couple of years it's just very hard for me to accept it. I felt a certain lost in a way. This has taught me how much i need to appreciate my dad when he was around me and how important he is to me. I am always reli close to him but now we've to be separated...i'm reli reli upset and depressed bout this whole thing. I reli reli missed him now and wish that he's with me rite now...